Outdated??

This is crazy. Its been nearly a yr since i last blogged.
I miss blogging as much as i miss my "ME" time..
Its been a helluva year for me..
Met alot of new frens along the way...
Losing some too...
Ah well, u win some, u lose some..
Well, i can only be grateful for all that i have...

Of course i have an ugly side of me...
I hope n really prayed that it will not show..
But i'm only human...
Its unavoidable...

Its really hard for me to tell my real feelings..
Be it in real life...
In my blog.....
ANYWHERE!

So all i can do it hope n pray... Here goes:

I wish for this feeling to be non-existence.
I wish for it to go away and disappear.
I wish for things to be as normal as it used to..

I can carry on wishing, but it still remains..
In the end, i suffer.

So, who's fault??

MINE. *smacks face*

E Time Game..

I waited.... And waited... And waited...
Till now, i'm still waiting...
Was my mistake too big tat u cant accept my apology??

I'm still waiting..

Pls reply, we have a game to finish....

Crappy feelings...

Im feeling down...
Even e slightest things can affect me so much...
A photo album... A simple talk...
Y cant i be where i wanna be?
Im drained out...
Pls... Im tired of all this shit..
Dun let me take e drastic way out...

Alot will hate me if i do...
Alot will curse me for doing it...

Coz they only noe how nice u were to them...

N they nvr will noe how "nice" u were to me....

STRESS AH!!!!!

Pls...

Doa for me...
More patience in life...
More patience dealing wit ppl.

I dun ask for much, just doa e best for me..

I need it... Badly....

Amin...

Lalalalalala...

Cant sleep again... Crappy ah...
Its alrez 2am n i'm still wide awake...
While e kids n fader is asleep,
Mummy is wide awake...

So wat do i do when i cant sleep??
I'll play games... Word games at e moment..
N listen to radio too...
Or do abit of farming...
But still i cant sleep.
Its really gonna be a lepak day for me besok...

Bismillah, *baca doa tido *

Lemme try...

Wonder if i can upload a pic thru my iphone...

Lets give it a try!! Hehe

*godeh2*
*gasps n sigh*

Oh ok, can't.. Tak boleh... Pu ke ie...

Crap!

I wonder...

I've been having super irritating migraine!
Not often now... Its daily!!
Hmmm... I'm prolly too stressed with work n all...
I ponder abt gng to e doc... I'll prolly just get a mth's supply of cafegot!
So not in favor of it... I've tried most of e remedies..
But none seem to work.. Sleeping seems to solve e problem...
But it starts as soon as i woke up...
Crappy ah! My whole neck feels so stiff..
Tempted to go massage, but seems tat time is not on my side..
Lgk crappy kan!?

Enuf oredy. I'm dragging my feets n forcing my mind to work.
I wish... I wish... I wish....

Oh no...

Im late again....
Even though i left home early...
Guess i better start waking up at 5am instead..
Oh, did i say tat its getting worse at e train station!?
Blocking e door n nt getting in when e train is here!
N difficult for e ppl to alight.
Bengaps ah!!! I wanted to scream for them to give way.
But i didnt... Not an attention seeker per...
So i missed e bloody train again..
Tats e 3rd train tis morn!!
I swear its bloody irratating to go work nowadays...

Pity me...

Wat is e value of life??

Y do we have to think of others b4 ourselves??

Even if it means i have to suffer in silence???

Takde makna nyer ah!!!

Timing is important :)

I find tat 24/7 is not enuf for me...
I hope time will slow down n lemme catch up with my kids..

I love u :)